here i go

i find myself desperately trying to cling on to whatever’s left of my friendship with another person. i feel like i need them in my lives, but that they don’t need me in theirs. that it would be okay if i just left their lives forever. honestly i dont have a lot of close friends. i have friends. i have some best friends. but i don’t really know who is close to me, that actually needs me in their life. 

i dont know why im feeling this. maybe its just because we’re all going to high school. we’ll all have different extracurricular activities. we’ll all meet different people. i guess i feel like we’re all going to separate. we’re all going to get replaced. i hate this feeling… i want to talk to someone about this, but i know this will just make them feel awkward, and will just force them to say something along the lines of “i need you in my life”. i want to be able to feel it, not hear it.

:/ well thanks tumblr for listening to another of my posts. love this site